I do accept what I did to create the situation in our marriage. She hasn't really spoken to me about exactly what her issues were except for the gambling a few years back and my age. I can do nothing about my age except try and look after myself which I am doing now in a big way. Some friends have suggested that if age is an issue for her it would have been anyway no matter what, I've no idea? I am really trying to focus on what I need to change because I need to not because I want her back ( even though I hope that is a knock on effect) Part of me is unsure right now what sort of relationship we could have now as so much has happened. I still really do love her but things would need to change on both sides for us to ever get back together.
