I think I belong here #2

[TL72*]

Thanks Georgia. That's what I was thinking. If he wants to go then he can go. If he wants to stay then he can stay. I am stronger today.

I am done with this sad, depressed, crying, baby crap. If he wants to leave then let him. I am going to be a healthy, strong, confident person from now on. I know there will be trying times in the future. Times when I want to shrivel back up into a ball and become the unattractive mess I have been and I will have to dig deep to deal with those times as they come.

Wednesday I am going to tell him to enjoy his afternoon out. I will take D8 to practice so he can stay out longer. Have fun with your friends, we don't need you home early.

If he changes his mind and wants to stay I will be the best wife a man could ask for because I know where I messed up. If he goes then the next man in my life is going to benefit from these past 10 years.

If there is't another man for a while I will date and enjoy myself and learn to live single. I haven't been single for more than a few months since I was 16.

It's time to take back the power.

You sound great in this post. I can relate, I said these exact things to myself! You will have strong days and then you'll have those down days but they don't seem to last as long as time goes by. Mine left and I am stronger since he's not there anymore. I too have not been single since I was that age. I moved out at 17 from my parents house and in with H #1 and then H#2 (the one in MLC) moved in right away after my first D. Time to find yourself and your own identity. It takes time but it's good for us to be on our own awhile. I think you're right - the next relationship will benefit from what we've learned about this and ourselves. hang in there!