H moving out tomorrow

[T-boned]

Oh TL, thanks for that post. It all sounds sooooo familiar - I have been 'stuck' for the last several weeks.

IC and I just started addressing it last week. He does this thing called EMDR which involves holding a small pad 'thingy' between each thumb and forefinger which alternately pulses, like a heartbeat. Anyway, the idea is during the pulsing you just let your mind go. Seems to conjure up past life experiences that usually have some connection with what you're dealing with but from a different perspective/situation. When yo think you have something, the pulsing is stopped, you discuss the issue, then resume the pulsing which supposedly causes your synapses take a different route. This can go on for up to an hour, or less depending. A few days later you usually notice an acceptance or calmness about the thing you were so worked up about and you feel better, like you can handle it. It's weird and can be really emotional - I couldn't stop crying during my session, but the last couple days have been better - I'm not on the edge like I was last week. I think my problem stems from realizing the finality of it all, trying to cope with him no longer being in love with me, and it has me by the short hairs! But I did talk to him today and I feel okay -a little sad, but more accepting. OK, that's just tonight - we'll see how it goes the next few days.

Anyway, I enjoyed reading this last post of yours because not only could I relate, but you gave me some really good information and the advice at the end was valuable and thought provoking.

I'm sure you have heard this too, but everyone I know who has gone through this has said to just wait, it will all be sooo much better when you're done. Hard to believe right now, but I have to trust those who have been in the trenches. So we have that to look forward to.

Thanks for your support, TL. I'm here for you!
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