Thanks for the encouragement. This formum and the other one I go to are so helpful. I had no idea how many people are going thru this craziness.
My regular percently is very much hermit like. I am a home body and do not let people in. Well this last month the kids and I have been going and doing and having a ball. It is very hard every time to walk out the door, but I feel better coming home. H works opposite shift, so I don't even have to ask him to go. But he usually turns into monster when he finds out we did something. I think it is weird that he can go and play without any of us, but I take the girls out for fun and he is upset. It is like he wants me to sit at home and pine over him. He called tonight while we were out, and yelled, I am sure he will only be worse by the time he gets home. I knew he would get mad.
My parents are trying to move here to help out with the kids. They want me to file, but understand I am not ready. It will be nice to have them so close. H is feeling threatened by it. Not sure what to say to him about it.
Blue my H is distant to. No hugs, kisses, when he passes me in kitchen he goes out of his way not to get close to me. I stopped asking for hugs, as they sucked anyhow. He has been in seperate bedroom for 4 months. He still tries fake sleep walking to be intimate, but I just say no and walk him back to his room. I don't trust that he has protected himself and don't want a STD.
I wish you luck with your H and hope that he wakes up soon. It is sad when the kids are affected. My kids really don't know yet. They think daddy is in a different room because I am sick. Never in a million years did I see my conservative religious husband go complete opposite and in such a short time.
