"I think it's time I start trying to understand exactly why she left and for me to do that I really need to start listening and trying accept my faults in all of this."
This is what you should have been doing since Day 1.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.