Ok here is my thinking on things as it stands. If I'm honest I am very wary of her motivations but I still crave her company. I do believe that much of this is about her not wanting to be alone over Easter. And my acceptance of it is based on me struggling to properly detach especially now and because Easter has always been a special time for us as a family. I am going to try my best to demonstrate to her what she may be losing by ending this marriage. I intend to subtly show her how much I have changed as a person but fully accept that it may make no difference. I can only go on my gut instinct on things and right now it says I should see how this goes. I have really began to trust my gut lately even though I haven't always acted in accordance with it. She really does seem diferent at the moment and I want to see where this goes although I fully accept that it will probably go back to normal after the Easter break. I am going to MC with her tomorrow night but intend to say very little as I just want to listen. I think it's time I start trying to understand exactly why she left and for me to do that I really need to start listening and trying accept my faults in all of this.
