Roller coaster and then some

[daring]

Hi Cadet-
Thanks for the welcome! And yes I have read through your links ( many times). So many of the posts from you, hearts blessing, job, roller coaster rider, and many others have been my go to as I try to navigate this crazy train.
I can't thank you all enough for the continued support you provide!

I will add that I got back from a business trip on Sunday and husband seemed like he needed to talk. So I listened and validated. At one point he said he doesn't know why he can't just let go and reconnect with me. I said ( very non judgementaly) maybe I'm not the one you want to connect with....

He told me fair question to ask but that I was absolutely the only one he wanted to connect with, he just wasn't sure if he could.

I took that as major progress as far as what I have been looking for. No ILY yet but that's the first time since BD he has been clear it's me he wants.

I told him I can be here for him but I can't take his journey for him, I can only
Continue to work on myself.

Baby steps!