Thats the greatest decission you took, its called prioritize, and I am glad you are being honest with yourself, now look at this...
Imagine your W and you are running you want to run with her but you have bronquitis...you need to recover before to be able to run with her despite how she takes this... Maybe when you recover you dont want to run with her anymore...but if you dont take care of yourself that bronquitis might kill you...do you understand?
Look at me, I am leaving NY after 7 years here, going to a new adventure and its being hard as hell here, am I scared? Yes, but I didnt abandoned the marriage and I am sick of being here and not being happy... I need other things in my life and maybe Hawaii will bring those things, whats clear for me is that staying here even if my W decides to get back with me, that wouldnt be a totally honest reconciliation....if I am happy in Hawaii and find myself, disconnect from this caos it might happen that she wants to reconcile and for sure I will be happier to then choose whats better for me!!
It gets to a point that even if it sounds weird, we have to detach and become kind of selfish just taking care of ourselves otherways there are no chances for nothing... Now my priorities are happiness and peace, relax, no attitudes from nobody and no competitivity, a more spiritual way of living and its me and only me the one who has to do that for myself, later on once I reach that level we will see what happens with the M.
You have to see the things like that as well, first you and your kids and later once you are better grounded, then you can focus on something else...
You are doing great, take care of yourself and let the universe handle the rest
When the student its ready, the teacher will appear... Even after all this time the sun never says to the Earth, "You owe me." Look what happens with a love like that,It lights the whole sky.
