New Year, New Goals, New me!

[mishka422]

Our trip was wonderful and relaxing and I'm so sad it's over.

Gabe was sick the first 3 days of it. I mean in bed, sick as a dog, fever, stomach mess. No bueno. It wasn't norovirus, just a standard bug.

I never got the courage to speak with him on the trip. I wasn't ever tipsy enough! I really have to wait now. There is so much going on with Marc's graduation coming up and him leaving for boot camp in August. I just can't rock the boat like that right now. It was just add much more stress to my load. I know I can't handle that right now.

Yes, I have to do it. I know, I know! I don't walk on eggshells really. I just don't express my feelings about our R. It's not going to kill me to wait it out. It's just aggravating to feel like I'm treading water all the danged time!

I know it's my decision to keep myself in this place but I just can't risk screwing up things for Marc.