5 months of heck...ugh

[Georgiabelle]

TLD,

I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. The key with many questions is to give simple answers, be pleasant and move on. Leave the room if necessary. Again, you must stop trying to analyze or figure out why your h says. It will drive you crazy.

Have you ever lived on your own? Are you afraid if being by yourself? I didn't write * alone* because you can be * alone* (the way you feel with others). I ask because I feel this sense of desperation in your posting. I don't say that to be harsh-it's just the vibe I get. Your old m is dead. And that's not a bad thing. I know it's very painful and difficult to accept that your life has been turned upside down.

Your life can be much, much better. That's why so much of the focus needs to be on you and your girls. You cannot flip a switch and make your h "fixed". That is on him. You did not abandon him. That issue is deep within him due to his childhood. You aren't his mother. Please try to focus on yourself and kids for your sanity. Sing at the top of your lungs in the car. Dance. Laugh so hard you cry. Skip (my D9 and I did this around the track at the park). Read. Work out. And know you will be fine with or without your h. Why? Because he has to work thru his own issues and you have one life to live (at least in this format). Enjoy it:-)