Also please don't get wrapped up in whether he sees you "accepting" this as meaning it's fine.
He KNOWS you do not want this. He knows it! And believe me, you being miserable or needy in front of him, or towards him, won't make him miss you more.
He is unhappy himself (depressed even) AND does not trust your changes will last and therefore, if he were to come back, nye fears you'd revert and things would be bad again. consistent changes + sufficient time = change he can believe in.
Keep at it.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
