5 months of heck...ugh

[MrBond]

"You all sound so healthy. I dream to someday be like you all."

Oh believe me, it wasn't always like this. Everyone on this site has gone through the EXACT same range of emotions you have. That's what makes this site so great. You are getting advice from the people who have and are actually living through this.

So believe me when I tell you that you will get to that point. You just need to have the faith in yourself. You will get stronger than you can ever imagine. It just takes one small step at a time.

In terms of the meditation thing, your mind may not be able to settle down for awhile. But keep it up and you'll find that there will be a time when it suddenly 'clicks'. And you will be at peace.