[BrightFuture]

No reply from H about the car insurance. I don’t he read his e-mails yet.

I took my friends to the airport this morning. I had two very busy days with them. I took my female friend shipping on Saturday. She needed a lot of things and we had hard time finding the clothes that would fit her. She is overweight and her H told us to buy the clothes that would make her look thinner. Next day we all went to the mall with the baby and did some more shopping. We found very decent stuff for her and they both were very pleased.

My house is a disaster right now after two days with the 18 month old. He is allowed to run with the food in his hands, so I have to do some good cleaning now.

We also went to my other GF’s bar last night and saw a couple of guys who fancy me. My friends were making comments how much these guys were interested in me. This doesn’t make me happy at all. Before I would like for them to see this and pass the info to H. But I was not enjoying it last night.

I loved the time I spent with my friends, but I have some mixed feelings. Their visit just stirred up my emotions again. H came up in our conversations, and it just made me depressed every time. My male friend doesn’t even mention anything about his hope for our R anymore. He told me again that H seems to be having some issues, but he doesn’t talk about them with the friends. He also said that he still doesn’t understand why H gave everything up, “this beautiful house”, a wife like me, the city where he wanted to live so badly… We talked about some issues in my childhood, which were similar to his wife’s issues. And he told me again that he sees how much I’ve changed during the last couple of years.

Before they came, I was wishing to hear only the good news. Well, just the opposite happened. Without me starting the conversation, my GF brought up her cousin again. She told me that H was just recently giving her a hard time again for intervening into his attempts to have a relationship with her cousin. And once again she told him how wrong he was even thinking about it, that she hasn’t changed her opinion about it and would still be against it. She also told me that H appears to be still navigating through his issues. She mentioned something H said that sounded like he still carries some resentment for his Mom. She said that he also mentioned that he doesn’t really like his sister. That he is selfish… That he is judgmental and stubborn…

Again, they both told me that H doesn’t have OW. I believe it. He must have been having a hard time finding one. This is why he brought up the subject about the cousin again. At least she answered his advances and gave him some ego boost.

This was very discouraging. It doesn’t look like H is anywhere close to the end of replay. He is still in a fantasy of finding a perfect match. Or, maybe it is just finding anyone who would be interested in him at this point, idk.