Once again you are right. I am having a hard time moving the focus to myself from H. I am still working on soidifying my changes. But so far - I am doing more activities with the girls while he is at work instead of waiting for his day off. I try to do something small with girls everyday after school, and then lots on weekends. If it is his weekend off I invite him along. Physically I got a new hairstyle and highlights - which felt good. I have not done highlights since before I got pregnant with my 7 year old. I have started to run, walk and ride bikes again. I have gotten into reading a ton. I am learning to tone up cooking - which needs a lot of work. I have gotten back into my cleaning routines that I had prior to kids, but now the kids help me I also do not necessarily stay up to see H when he comes home at night. I would like to tone up my body and start boxing with H punching bag (actually want to put his picture up and punch it a few million times...LOL) So I am making small changes.
The goals are hard for me. I have read both DB books, but I scrammble to make my goals and then get easily frustrated. A lot of my goals center around H, and how to get him back, which I gather is not the right thing to do. MrBond or anyone can you give me some help with these, as I am lost at this point? I am finding that my losing a lot of weight and being tube fed, and the lack of sleep is hurting the way I think and react to things. Still having trouble gaining with tube feedings. H said he cancelled first lawyer due to how sick I am. HELP ME???? Where did you start with goals, I seem to center them on getting him back and not on GAL goals.
I also do not necessarily stay up to see H when he comes home at night. I would like to tone up my body and start boxing with H punching bag (actually want to put his picture up and punch it a few million times...LOL) So I am making small changes.
