It's a better day

[adinva]

Most definitely, BA.

Everyone, it is nice to know that I'm not crazy about this stuff and that other people would have a problem with it too.

Underdog, I suppose the voice in my head that says it's important to connect with your family and people who are important to you is louder than the voice in my head that says these people are not good for my kids to be around. I mean, their cousin? He's fun and cares about them and he's about the only person in our circle who has recently made the transition from college to a real job. And how can you not want to be around your grandma and dad, even if they're a little kooky? And the couple in Pittsburgh is 100% delightful, a real blessing in my life, and I only get to see them with H's family, I think I'm too far on the periphery to go visit them without H and MIL thinking I should have brought them with me, and the couple would be thinking the same thing most likely. The husband of the couple is H's brother's best friend from high school. I dunno, I think without H's family connecting us, the couple will sort of drift away from me. They're delightful but not real close to me.

I THOUGHT I was taking good care of myself by declaring my level of involvement...bringing the boy, staying offsite, not attending the game, and then it went to pot. I caved and I know it, and I would most likely make all of the same decisions the same way again if I had it to do over. In the future, it's more likely I just won't go, and won't work so hard to make sure S16 gets there. Our original plan was to stay home and we could have done that.

Or I could grow more backbone and speak up when I don't agree with something.

I did speak up to our little group about my opinion of the unsportsmanlike boooing and jeering done by the Pittsburgh fans. I liked their enthusiasm when the Penns scored, but I was not a fan of the booing and the "Flyers suck" chanting. Not cool. I suppose if I could say that, I could have said to nephew "not cool" when he needled his grandma. I would be shocked and appalled if my kids spoke to her that way.

So, I will try to stop expecting cats to bark and maybe I will try harder not to put myself in situations that make me miserable. I don't want to be one of those martyr types.