own buz 27: finances, travel, mediation : STFU !

[makingmagic]

Hi Eric,

Thanks for chiming in and holding me accountable. At this point it is very easy to slip back.

I was posting about my weekend. I was excited to have some family time and to be included in his Saturday night plans & was journalling and for anyone to read. It is hard not to have expectations. I am back on track, trying not to see it for anything than what it was. Dinner. Unless he makes it more than dinner, dinner is what it was.

Today, I contacted the mediation office to enquire about the minutes of the base to our new agreement. I should be receiving them by tomorrow. I need to stay focused on THAT. Getting that completed and signed. Collecting my outstanding salary, etc. Having funds in my account so that I can review my future.

I am not going to accept "all" crumbs.... I will be selective. Approx 1/2 hr ago, he asked if I was going to go into work. I don't think I will. Today, I need to get my work stuff done from home. I have plenty to do here. I would only be going to "see" him.... and that hurts me. I would be accepting his "coffee" crumb today....so, won't go unless a client appt is scheduled.

I am truly trying to get back to Focusing on Me... and what I want and what I like to do. Its just challenging when we work/see each other so much. Im sure it seems like I post alot about him... Hard to figure out who I AM...