Thanks Georgia. That's what I was thinking. If he wants to go then he can go. If he wants to stay then he can stay. I am stronger today.
I am done with this sad, depressed, crying, baby crap. If he wants to leave then let him. I am going to be a healthy, strong, confident person from now on. I know there will be trying times in the future. Times when I want to shrivel back up into a ball and become the unattractive mess I have been and I will have to dig deep to deal with those times as they come.
Wednesday I am going to tell him to enjoy his afternoon out. I will take D8 to practice so he can stay out longer. Have fun with your friends, we don't need you home early.
If he changes his mind and wants to stay I will be the best wife a man could ask for because I know where I messed up. If he goes then the next man in my life is going to benefit from these past 10 years.
If there is't another man for a while I will date and enjoy myself and learn to live single. I haven't been single for more than a few months since I was 16.
It's time to take back the power.
Me: 33 / H: 36 M: 10y / T: 14y 3 kids BD: 2/22/14 Live in separation 3/8/14 H consult lawyer, says filing asap 4/24/14 H moved out 4/25/14 2nd time around. 1st separation 4y ago lasted a month