I am so sorry to read this update. Yep, it isn't fun at all.
This isn't about you at all. I know you think we're talking nonsense to you here. But believe us when we tell you that it is NEVER about you at all. Yes, W has said really hurtful things to you about the M. It is the confusion that's talking, not W.
For the MLCer, it is confusing to wonder why we're so unhappy so we are spinning around looking for somebody to blame. Who else but the person closest to us? The spouse. We all live in a tangible world so we are floundering around trying to pinpoint the reason for our unhappiness and depression. In their mind, the depression is really heavy and the PRESSURE immense so we feel the STRONG urge/need to get outta there fast!
We want you outta our face! Get the f*ck outta our way. That is our mindset in MLC. It will take a long, long time for the MLCer to work through their chit. We zig zag all over the place because we are so damned confused and fearful all the time. There were a few times when I hugged Ms. Wonka during my MLC and I am sure I confused her big time with my actions/antics.
It is not you, honey.
The best you can do in this situation is to detach and GAL. You might want to take your kids out more often such as going to the movies or the arcade. Get busy living instead of standing still staring at your W. Does nobody any good at all.
