H hung out with us till the kids bedtime tonight. I felt like we had fun playing and swimming with the kids. It felt like things were good again except from the odd devastating comment that H made. My mum is planning to visit in a couple of months time- he told me I'd need to tell her that we've separated. I felt upset- he's been the one driving the secrecy. That and other comments made it clear that he has no intention of ever moving back. He told me he thinks we work well as business partners and on our various projects but not as a couple. To me that seems like the best foundation for a relationship...
I think part of the problem is caused by H having a MLC. I keep reminding myself that if it is a MLC there is nothing I can do but focus on myself : )