Fabulous weekend! JTM planned a fun filled two days for us and I just enjoyed every second of it.
At one point our conversation became very intimate, and I was triggered and started to weep. He held me closely, told me to let it all out and that I was safe. He spoke of my being hurt and that I deserved to be loved, cherished and appreciated.
It was amazing and surprising . I sobbed. The whole time we are together , he strokes, pets, pats, squeezes and kisses me. For someone who couldn't stand to be touched as a child, resisted it as a teen, and accepted touch as an adult, I have come to now appreciated and enjoy it today. This is part of the gift that my H. gave to me.
I'm fortunate to have JTM in my life. Where it leads and for how long is unknown. He is here for a reason, and I'm just going to flow with it.
Later today I'll see my youngest daughter... we're going to do a wee bit of shopping and have a light supper.
The week was hard for me, but this weekend was so sweet. I would like to see some things balance out for me. I know I have to be the one to work on this, new challenge!
Formerly Workinprogress H :55 M :over 29 yrs. Together : 33 D : college D : adult BD and left : May 2013 Separated Experimenting/Replay
