I think I belong here #2

[praying_in_GA]

Woke up this morning ready to crawl back under the covers. It's almost like sleeping resets my confidence. I need to figure out away to immediately reset it again.

My oldest wanted to go spend the night with my grandparents so I got up and too her over there. I stayed for a bit. It was good. I don't usually do stuff the mornings before I work...I don't really know why...but it was good. It made me feel like this wasn't a wasted day. Anyway, my grandfather was so mad about my situation today. I love him. I think it was his anger that truly snapped me out of my dark mood. "He said 'I do' he had s**...this isn't something he walks away from. Dumba**." LOL. I love that man.

So, good day reset! Went home, napped for work, got up and worked out...felt a little off again before my workout. Oh well, it will get better. As I head to work (I seem to sink into my depressive state at work), I start to dread this weekend. Two nights of work and then my birthday. Yay. My grandmother called me and asked if the kids and I would like to go to dinner for my birthday Monday night. (P.S.-it's also my grandfathers birthday!! Then my little one turns two on Tuesday! BIG week ahead!)Of course I said yes, we need to go out and celebrate. H isn't invited. I think I will ask him to put together the kitchen for D2s birthday while we dine. I think I will also take D8 to get a pedicure Monday. I'm calling it a no school day in honor of my birthday.

I read something today that was written for a mom selling off her cloth diaper stash. (I at one point had a huge stash of beautiful diapers. I now have a beautiful stash of baby carriers. I love to wrap my little one!) It sounded like something I would read here so I wanted to share:

Sometimes a fresh start means sitting down with yourself and saying, “That’s what I did. That’s who I was. But that doesn’t fit what I do now, who I am now, and it’s time to let go.”

So you pack up the old with fondness and care, and you tenderly and tearfully send it off to where it will be used and loved, and only then do you realize how much that old stash had been weighing you down.

Chin up, shake it off, breathe deep. A fresh start feels good.