Spouse tried I didn't, now opposite

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I think I need to write more clearly . My frustration is more of a personal issue of me "slipping" knowing I messed up by not following plan, not really a W problem. Honestly, she's very intelligent and I'm sure she could use her DB experience in a very challenging manner to keep me off balance if she chose.

Yes it involves me losing thought process of what to do and not to do. The venting out loud is my re running the scenario and where I go wrong and what my thoughts are. Part of my downfall is the personal value and satisfaction i enjoy from helping all the time. It's a very new experience for me.