I am sorry that you find yourself here. I have been dealing with this crap since November 2013. I keep hoping that I am going to wake up from this nightmare. Because one person is being selfish it affects a multitude of people. It makes me sad, mad, angry, confused, delirious, exhausted, and many other things.
I hope that communcation is getting better in your relationship. I hope that it is getting easier to follow DBing rules. I am still struggling very much.
I am tired of hearing I am done I want a divorce and everything is my fault...ugh. It got tired after 1 week. And now I have to deal with the constant question OW things you hate her - do you? UMMMMMMMMMMMM - he won't even admit she is OW. I just say I don't know her and I don't hate people and I have answered this before - now I ignore the question or say it was answered a long time ago. Sometimes I think H wants me and OW to fight over him. The problem is that I don't know who him is anymore, and not sure if we would work together anymore.