5 months of heck...ugh

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Tld, we were young and of course not perfect. She was innocent until we met in college and S born beforehand. She will probably agree she was not perfect W. I do remember many fights at first (started by each) but I can promise in almost every instance I escalated language and/or went too far verbally. Luckily I'm not physical but I would assume she lived with that thought. When younger I would grab an axe and chop down dozens of mesquites as my outlet to cool off. The horrid part was because during our whole marriage her heart was bright as a star and I was always jealous of that. She cares without concern for the hurt it might have caused her. I knew that fact and did hurt her emotionally knowing she would love me and show me kindness. Granted she did have her moments as all do but they were few and far between so I bare the bulk of responsibility