Hi WH.. I feel your struggles, I have been there. I have 4 kids. I was a stay-at-home mother until MLC hit. I went from having it all to SURVIVAL MODE. I had days of despair and days of anger and power.. I NEED TO DO THIS, I CAN DO THIS AND I WILL DO THIS.. One lesson repeated frequently on here is : " live your life as if he will never return " With you relying on his support, what would happen if he passed away tonight?? Not a nice thing to say, (I am sorry) but my ex put me in this state of mind 3 times with suicidal periods.. I HAD TO TAKE MATTERS IN MY OWN HANDS.. \you cannot rely on him nor his money nor his help. He is in lalaland and sees life differently.
YOU AND THE KIDS CAN DO THIS.. Your son could walk dogs.. He could clean driveways, cut grass... It wouldn' t pay bills but what he would bring could buy him a new pair of shoes or even a bike if he is very successful.. My 13yr old at the time did it to help us.. She also babysat neighbours kids. It gave her a self-esteem boost and an independence she loved because :" HER MONEY, HER CHOICE ".
You will find a way, I just know.. HOW I KNOW? Because after all this mess, you guys have risen to every challenges therefor, I believe in you.
