Ok and if you decide to go NC for even 2 days, could you see how its not helping you at all to worry about how to get back to contact? You are worrying about the future and thats what I want you to see, start the NC and when you are close to the day that you have to contact him again, then that day we can give you advice about how and what to do, stick to your actions of today and let go of the future because you cant control it.
When the student its ready, the teacher will appear... Even after all this time the sun never says to the Earth, "You owe me." Look what happens with a love like that,It lights the whole sky.
