[BrightFuture]

Waiting for the friends to arrive. They should be here any minute. And I’m having really mixed feelings. They are good friends, but the fact that they are also H’s friends makes me a bit uneasy. He hangs around them a lot recently, what it looks like. He goes to their house for dinners and even doesn’t mind a little kid around. When I called them at their house the other day to find out the plans, I found out that H and his new friend were at their house that night. The new friend wanted to say hi to me for whatever reason. I haven’t met him yet, so it was kind of weird.

So here I am sitting and having these thoughts about our friendship... I know they don’t want to take sides, but I still feel a bit betrayed, because they keep accepting and accommodating H knowing that he did the wrong things (hook up with our mutual friend’s cousin) and hurt me. I’m starting to think that I’m crazy and that because people still like and accept H, it must be not a big deal what he did, and I just inflicted all that pain on myself.