So I have been looking at my threads and I am back and forth on what to do and what I want. I want to stand, but do not know how to do that exactly. H is in our house in separate room and we are basically roommates. We can talk nice, but there is absolutely no physical contact. He spends every minute he can at OW house and claims they are just friends - um yeah I don't have idiot stamped across my head. He is showing all signs of mlc and some psychosis too. I tend to waver when I get around good friends or family because they want me to file. He says he is going to divorce me when done with work issue. I have been trying the 180s, but have not done very well. I have been detaching, but have a hard time not being a bitch when I talk to him (I am normally not that way.)
