The last 2 weeks have been an emo-coaster... I don't know why but I've thought of H more. I don't want him back or want him to come back, no love left (that I can tell), it's just the hurt is still there/feeling of betrayal. I cried a few times for the first time in a few months.
I was scrolling through my Facebook looking at all the happy pictures of my friends with their new babies and loving statuses about their husbands/relationships......
Feeling bad about my life...
As I scrolled there was a photo of a child who beat cancer, then I scrolled some more and a photo of a woman who was finishing Chemo. Then I found out yesterday that a person on Youtube who I love to watch died from complications of Lupus at the age of 27.
What a way to be reminded that while Divorce is bad..... things could be worst. I am going to attempt to not complain about my life for the rest of the year....and try to stick with positive thinking.
I really need to start working out... I have yet to jump on board with that. I am doing another 5k in June, I have 6 ladies joining me so far. I think I will ask if they'd like to start doing weekly walks/jogs on the lakefront.
Right now...my biggest worry is getting my dog to stop barking at everyone he sees when I take him out.... lol any suggestions?
I go to get my stuff out of storage next weekend...it will be nice to have furniture again. A real bed. Chairs etc... lol
me: 30 H:30 tgthr:7 m:4 no kids 5 counseling sessions initiated by H as a LR: Oct 2012 long distance marriage b/c of work since Nov 2012 official BD: July 2013 nothing filed 1/1/14 I dropped the rope
