Wife moved out to be with her Tour Guide Lover

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The above left out the physical violence which is a huge factor.I and she both have had a lot of counseling on this. The issue is I was always honest with my IC, she most likely lied, and took no responsibility ever for anything.

I don't see you talking responsibility for any of your actions either. Your words are only showing justification for your actions. You portray yourself as calm and loving and her as hot headed. You make it seem okay that you threw your food away or that you threw the mail on the floor, after all she made you mad and you could have done much worse.

Oh boy , believe me I don't blame her at all. Mi am showing when I did it. My anger was all mine. I was told it was my form of an anxiety or panic attack.

No one that you love should ever have to deal with that. EVER! I have taught my boys that. Mi sat them both down in my S21's apartment with his girlfriend who was the victim of a sexual assault when she was an adolescent and I bared my soul.

I told them how I was madly in love with their mother, how I should have gone for help way back when, how I expected that if my sons ever ever exhibited any of my behaviors I expected them to seek help and looked S21 girl in the eye and told her.mi expect you to call the police or leave..

She told me S21'is the most generous loving man and he never has even raised his voice at her and she can be a real pain sometimes.

Please let me repent in peace. Me have gone to my rabbi, I have told everyone what happened in our marriage.

Do you know in the entire 12 months that the affair was in secret and that I lied with her except for some begging and pleading when ever there was a DD I never even felt any anger or rage.

I feel god has punished me enough. For some reason the woman I fell madly and passionately in love with was the only VICTIM here.

I actually asked her and begged her as to why she never called the police, he response was she loved me so much and then one day she went so numb she almost hoped I would kill her! Mean you believe that she said that.

That was the day I decided to let her go.

The truth is no one but me knows my guilt and hatred I hold against myself. That is why on some of the other marriage sites, people got fed up,with me. They kept telling me how awful she was and how I had to toss her out like trash, but I can't do that..

I was told that she and I were both codependent....