Also Do you not think I have thought about what you have said already? I spent weeks and weeks trying to understand why this had happened and ended up making myself ill. I lost 16lbs in just under a month because I wasn't eating as I blamed myself for this. So much so that everyone beagn to tell me to give myself a break. I have stood back and let her 'do her thing' and been a dad to our two little boys while she has been out dating and having fun. She took herself of to her sisters 500 miles away for 4 days and spoke to the boys for barely 3 minutes on the phone while she was gone. I put my boys to bed every single night and take them to school every single morning. I get up when they have nightmares and are vomitting at 3am. My eldest takes regular night terrors and is very hard to manage at times but I keep going. So yes, I wasn't the perfect husband, who can ever claim to be, but I never had the opportunity to address any of the issues she might have had because she decided to sleep with someone else, refused to stop when I asked and then decided to leave me alone with our two sons to go 'find herself' So sorry if I seem a bit emotional and angry about this but I believe it is justified.
