Spouse tried I didn't, now opposite

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I finally have the courage to open up a little more I guess. I really was under the impression that our sitch would be difficult since my spouse used this forum and was able to help me through my tough time in life and I was always afraid everyone would know my spouse and hold me in contempt for my opinions. In saying that, I guess it's time to be a little more open even though I'm afraid it could cause more heartache, but want nothing more than to love my W to the fullest and give her the fairytale marriage she so deserves. Obviously, I did look for my W posts after MrBond mentioned it and the courage she showed/shows shames me to no end. Thank you everyone for the support as I never was or am the perfect H, but will definitely be a better man/father/husband from the inspiring encouragement I have received. I pray we survive my failures as now I see her for her and my feelings for myself/life have shown me how amazing she truly is and how blessed my life has always been because of her.