Thanks for all the input. The mind is an amazing thing and mine knew I needed a few days respite to prepare for tonight.

S had a huge tantrum after we had to do 2 days worth of homework because h didn't do it again on his night. He ended up breaking the window in his bedroom and shattering my phone against the wall all The time screaming for his dad.

At the same time h's puppy got out of the house 2x.

I called h and told him his dog needed a long walk which I cannot do with s. I also told him h was really missing him. I asked if he could come home after work and spend a little time with s while I got phone taken care of. (Big mistake)

He said he would think about it. Went on about why can't I handle it myself. Then texted and said no he wouldn't come.

Didn't really expect him to. Just frustrated. Going to meditate now.

Me 44 H 42
M 10 T 12 (at time of BD)
Ss 20 16
S11 (special needs)

BD 9/13 H "unhappy for years" moves to seperate bedroom
10/13 EA/PA confirmed but denied
S and I move out 3/15