I've really been "single dad'ing" for quite some time, when I think about... W isn't a bad mom by any means, but I've really been doing the bulk of keeping the household together lately, whereas it definitely used to be more of a 50/50 split.
Spent the day working at home and taking care of W after her panic attack, went to IC, picked up the kids from school and made dinner, did bath time, cleaned up around the house/laundry... It's really just gotten to be routine for me. W asked me for a rub down this evening and then later thanked me for taking care of her today. Told me she was super happy that the panic attack happened on a day when I was working at home because she didn't know what she would have done if it had been an in-office day for me and said that it was beyond nice to have me there. Part of me felt like saying "yeah, and WTF will you do once you've moved out and I'm NOT there anymore?" but I of course kept my mouth shut. I just told her that she was more than welcome and I was glad she was feeling better.
She just left to go visit her sister and I could tell by her demeanor that it wasn't just a friendly visit... this will be when she breaks the news to her sister. Guess that's mind-reading but I'm reasonably confident in my assumption. Doesn't really matter though because I just keep my pleasant, cool and calm mood no matter what. Told her I hoped she had a good time and she came and gave me a hug and then rolled out. So... just going to spend some quality time with the kids before their bedtime and then probably hit the sheets not long after they do.
I've noticed I have some anger, albeit well-hidden, toward her parents for "saving" her by allowing her to move in with them. Going to need to handle that. Also bothers me that she's surrounded by cheerleaders telling her divorce is the way to personal fulfillment and happiness... kind of wish there was at least one person in her life that would suggest to her that this was perhaps not going to achieve what she thinks it will achieve...
H: 43 W: 37 M: 11 years T: 12 years S: 11 D: 8 ILYBINILWY, "I want to move out" and "I want a divorce": 3/23/14 MC started: 9/22/14 Affair and past infidelity discovered: 9/26/14 Piecing: 10/20/14
