Wants to leave again after a month!!!

[DFE]

I've finally accepted it's the end of the road. It only took me 9years but I'm here. I've accepted it and am ready to move on. Do I want to? No? I don't believe in divorce and I want my family together. I'm afraid of dating again and of being alone. But I also know that this isn't how it should be. I shouldn't live in fear of him leaving, wanting out, or not wanting to be intimate with me.

There has to be something better out there. I'm not appreciated and after the way he has been speaking to me the last few days/weeks I can see he has ZERO respect for me. None. Yes it's my fault. People will treat you how you let them. I need to work on that for my future. Never be anyone's doormat. He's angry and feels hatred towards me. He says I've ruined his life. Wow I thought we had a great life. Everyone was envious on the outside. I guess the inside it was different and I didn't know it.

Move forward and let go. I will be ok.