Thank you, AS. I don't want to be in a place of hate. I know that all it does is consume the hater and go undetected by the hatee. I think what has ended up happening is that a lot of the resentment and anger about being left, being dragged through court, having her deny me equal parenting time.....all of that that I have suppressed is starting to creep to the surface. And resentment is poison -- I don't want to feel that way, but I can't seem to get my arms around it.
I am hurt, angry, and done. And I am devastated by her selfishness and inability to see beyond her own wants and needs -- or even to acknowledge how this has impacted S and how she has a role. I honestly don't know what happened to the soul that I met 11 years ago - it's gone.
