Forget about what its done, wear your b@lls back and find a L who is willing and good enought to help you with this injustice, that should be in your priority list, at the end you should not care about calling her lazy, but about to have those kids with you at least 50/50 and now a priority for you should be reduce to minimal the possibilities of not getting a 50/50 at least...
When the student its ready, the teacher will appear... Even after all this time the sun never says to the Earth, "You owe me." Look what happens with a love like that,It lights the whole sky.