But at the end of the day, I still just really miss him and don't understand why he continues to make comments about staying together. Is it just jerky manipulation? I don't want you but don't want anybody else to have you either?
It's just a manifestation of his confusion and turmoil. He probably means it, but he's in no state to act on that. He's still got a long, long journey ahead of him. So many WAS's engage in affairs to escape reality, and it prevents them from making the personal journey they need to make that might ultimately help them to find true happiness (from within) and eventually reconcile. When people climb the mountain to seek wisdom, they don't go with a boyfriend/ girlfriend. Enlightenment is a solitary experience.
