Stay in this mode c. Let go. Quit thinking about her. I know exactly what you feel bc you do so well at describing everything I've felt. Our stories are different...but the same. We have all loved someone unconditionally. Beyond the point that it even makes sense. Love yourself now c. Let go.
I still allow myself a sad moment thinking about what shoulda, woulda, coulda, then SNAP! back to reality. I look at the mess she has made of her life and chuckle bc its not my prob.
What's the saying? The best way to get over a woman is to climb on top of another one?