Mondays for days ...

[Train]

Starsky, I feel like everything is happening so stinking fast. I was celebrating my 10th wedding anniversary with a man I called my best friend 2 months ago. Now, we're finalizing a S agreement. I mean, once all that's complete, then I guess I'll have nothing BUT time to sort through the rest of this muck. But when will I feel confident enough to say, "I'm done"? I suppose only time will tell.

But both you guys - you and HS - continue to give me reasons to keep pulling away from him. H makes that easy most days. I mean, I haven't chased him much. But he knows I'm here. If that makes sense.

And I guess it would be pointless for me to ask him how he feels about dating during our S ... considering he was ALREADY dating WHILE we were married ... sheesh.

A friend called me a little while ago; a girl we went to high school with works at the grocery store with OW. Apparently OW is now outwardly telling people that "H left Train for me." Our high school friend called my friend to confirm. She said OW's issues are "disrupting work."

***sigh***

At the end of the day, nothing I do - or don't do - is going to hurry this process as quickly as I wish it would move. Time is the ultimate healer. And I've just got to brace myself for a lot of changes, challenges and lonely nights as I slug my way through. There's no magic bullet. No time machine.