The ripping apart of oneself and the work to figure out “who I want to be when I grow up”….is f*cking tough. It is a process. There is not right or wrong answer Barry. The answer is in you. The answer really is….who does Barry want to be……when no one is around…..regardless of other actions…..the Barry that will feel good about himself….
Your intent is honorable Barry. You are trying to do the "right" things.
And you are losing yourself, in the process.....
Try and stick to answering the basic questions above, and see what you come up with....
