Oh my...GASP! I have never looked at it that way. I will have the conversation w/H tonight.
Today, H apologized AGAIN for the texts. Admits he should have not responded to OW texts and that he should have come clean when I initially asked about contact. Said he got caught off guard and she sent him texts regarding her mother's poor health condition, her son's father left her and not taking care of her 4 month child and she doesn't have a job. He also said he got the impression she was reaching out to him for financial help but she did not ask directly nor did he volunteer to assist.
He also reiterated I have access to his computer, emails, phone records, online accounts as well as his whereabouts. I responded with Hmmmmmm.
H also kept asking me if I was going to continue to work on the M. If I wanted him to move out of the BR or leave. Said he understands that he messed up again and so if we continued would be my decision. He just kept blindsiding me with all these questions of reassurance and comments on how he not going to mess up again. yada yada yada
I felt really pressured by his questions and unsure how to answer because once again, I'm the one making the decisions while he gets to sit back. Despite his sincere jesters, I still do not trust him. Too many disappointments.
Do I say what is on my heart, my mind or neither? Why am I feeling confused? Starsky!!! Where are you? How should I respond before I make this too easy for H? Yet again!
