"i told her that i had been going to counseling and aa just for her"
Wrong. You're supposed to be doing it for yourself.
"I'm not all that interested in changing anything if it doesnt net me the results i want."
Then you're going to fail. Simple as that. You're only changing to trick her into coming back. Then once she comes back you're going back to acting the way you always have when she left because your changes weren't real.
Tell me, would you like to be with someone like that? Why would she?
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
