So I asked. She said 'it isn't you, it is the tension, like something has to change or the divorce needs to progress'.
Eh, I still take it a little personal. I should be getting a temporary custodial agreement soon which would allow us to rotate out of the house on our non parenting days. Have to see it first, have to run it by my L first, then make a decision.
Part of me wonders if the agreement isn't to my liking whether I should go with it anyway as it would speed up the process of us having space. I don't think there is a chance of R right now, with our current living arrangements, and the constant tension between the two of us.
The other part of me says if I am not completely happy with the temporary arrangement that f$(@ her, I am staying in the house until this process is complete. Not sure which side will win out....
me 41 w43 married 20 years BD 10/10/13 ILYBNILWY.... 4 kids, 21,18,8,6