I am pretty sure she is having an MLC. What now?

[nyk]

After last weekend I realized where my biggest void was. I miss my children. Under the current arrangement I go from wednesday to wednesday without seeing them. That was unacceptable to me.
I think in the early going I felt so responsible for all of this that I moved away to protect all of us.
Now that I understand that I have faults and am working hard on them and that much of the problem is W's MLC.
I did not understand that she is a completely different person now. I am trying to change, but I think the pain of missing sons is too much and unwarranted. She must believe so too. I approached her about me moving back to the school district and she was all for it. Of course, she had to monster a little bit by pressuring me about separation again and implying I should use my half of the home equity to pay off bills and make it easier...I didnt bite.