Today I am emotional an on high alert. I know what today is. It's the exAP's birthday. I know this because we were friends. I'm betting my W knows it too.
Later this month W will have been home for 6 months. Things are moving slowly and I have been ok, but today, I am holding my breath and in a storm of triggers, mind movies, timeline reviews and all out crazy train mode.
Holding it together. Letting things out to process alone, slowly. Journaling here. Painfully reminded of how long healing from infidelity is really going to take.
Me(F):40 WAW:44 T:13yrs M:9yrs BD:2/12 (I saw a text) ILYBINILWY: 5/12 PA admission: 12/12 (began 3/11) S:2/13 Moves in w/AP D begins: 7/13 W moves home to R: 10/13
