Don't know if im on the edge anymore or not....

[dingo]

Quick update from me. Its been just over 2 weeks since our last actual discussion. We've had a few email exchanges relating to business type things (taxes, a piece of mail she was looking for, money problems with her condo (not the one she is living in now, a rental property she rents out in her hometown), etc.)since then.

She claimed that she spoke with her lawyer the day after we last actually spoke. She also stated that she was ready to move her stuff out and wanted to come over that weekend. I wasn't available that weekend and let her know to pick another time. Since then, I have heard nothing from her regarding moving her things or anything further from her or her lawyer about the divorce or business related to it.

These delays are somewhat eroding my resolve and I have to remind myself that the current situation is 100000% unacceptable and that I need to be firm on that and firm with her. I havent slipped up yet though - other than in my own head.

Another thing I still struggle back and forth with is guilt. Wishing I did somethings different during the M, believing that everything is my fault, etc. Still working on letting go of that as well.