Thanks Sandi2 .
I am trying to be fair and to protect the children.
The mediator thougth it was a strange word to use when I said i just wanted to protect my wife and children by ensuring a roof over their heads.

Protecting me : I do not think I really understand what that really means. A part of me still belives that my wife wants the best for both of us and that she belives this is the best way.