At what point would you ever consider sending this letter to your H?
It strikes me as very much a letter about you. While you thank H for many things, they are things he has done for you. And then you plead with him not to leave you. It will not work to keep him with you. If you plan to send this letter to him ever, you will have to cut out the requests and just concentrate on the things you appreciate about him.
As they say, when you got married to him, you didn't have to plead with him to marry you, did you? No one gets married or stays married solely on the basis that someone is pleading with them. If it sinks to that level, it becomes a turn off. I am not being cruel, just straight. After all, ALL of us here have pleaded with our spouses not to leave after they dropped the bomb, and we all know it didn't work, right? They merely got more irritated and stronger in their resolve to carry on along their chosen path.
Remember, actions speak louder than words!
Getting the book contract will be good for you - a boost to your self esteem, something to keep you occupied, and will show your H that you can take care of yourself financially. Go for it!
Livnlearn
"The unexamined life is not worth living" - Socrates
