I Have no Idea really. Things he does make me frustrated but I look at him and feel indifference. Seeing those texts hurt in the moment. Hurt my pride the most. When I think about him being "in love" with someone else I think it should hurt but it really doesn't.

Maybe I am over him but it seems like too soon. That's why I think this is a defense mechanism and the feelings are going to catch up with me. Maybe I am obviously over thinking.

I did a loving kindness meditation last night. I pictured s for someone who gives me loving kindness and h for someone I wanted to send loving kindness to. I think that was the first time I understood the term lovingly detach.

Me 44 H 42
M 10 T 12 (at time of BD)
Ss 20 16
S11 (special needs)

BD 9/13 H "unhappy for years" moves to seperate bedroom
10/13 EA/PA confirmed but denied
S and I move out 3/15